No one will read this anyway...

You know, it seems rather pointless to write a blog that no one will see. I guess maybe I will just hope that someday, someone will randomly find this, and be my friend....

I'm back up to 125 pounds :( 

I was down to 121 last week, the lowest I've been for about five years. My goal weight is still 105... I'm getting close now, just have to hold out a bit more...

Uh, today was  so awful. It seems like my parents know exactly what to say to make me feel like a dumbass. Oh well...

A few of my favorites.

I guess I don't really know what a blog is for... or why I'm writing here. Maybe it's a place for one to put their feelings down, or to release some inner tension. Well, whatever the reason, I am here now, writing... 

I will start by saying that I am ana. And more importantly, I love to write poems. I think it's my passion. 

I think that perhaps I felt urged to create this blog because it can act as an accountability partner for me. Knowing that if I binge, I will have to write it here for all to  see is somewhat disturbing.

So, today I ate horribly. I had a frozen waffle for breakfast. For lunch I had pudding, carrots, and cookies. And I had three more cookies when I got home! Awful feeling... 

I want to lose at least twenty more pounds. I have already lost almost thirty since this time last year. I am going to start exercising because I can't seem to lose more weight even with fasting. 

So... I shall see how that goes...